I want to elaborate on my last blog about why I left the church, and dig deeper into the difference I’ve found between Spirituality and Religion.
I’ll start by sharing more of my story:
At 17 years old I had had enough of church. I just didn’t feel inspired, and I felt like I was being fed what felt like half-truths - I knew there had to be SO much more to this incredible Universe than the condensed version I was taught in church. I was tired of being expected to conform to certain rules and structures instead of exploring my own mind and following my own heart. So I stopped going. One family member said I was going through a phase, and I’d “find God” again.
Well, I found God since then. I found the Universe, and my connection to it and my oneness with it and all life. And it wasn’t in the church I grew up in. That phase my family member was concerned about has lasted 17 years as of 2020 - now over half my life - and I don’t see it ending.
I discovered my connection to the Universe and that this God I grew up believing in was actually a Source Energy from which we all came and will all return to, and that we are always part of and connected to. This discovery came from many long conversations with my boyfriend at the time that I was beginning to leave the church the summer after we graduated high school, who also wasn’t resonating with his Christian upbringing and wanted to dig deeper into what the Christian church hasn’t been telling us. It led me to read more, do more digging on my own, explore more of my own concepts. Perhaps Jesus was actually here to help us realize all these things? Perhaps he wasn’t actually God’s physical son at all, but instead a very enlightened, spiritually evolved person who was here to assist us on our spiritual evolution and path to enlightenment? Maybe he was here to help us, be one with us and make us aware of our own inner power to be just like him? He did help Peter realize his own ability to walk on water, no different than Jesus’ ability. All of us, sons and daughters of God - another way of saying we are all part of that original Source Energy. Maybe humanity wasn’t ready for that at the time. Or maybe someone else didn’t want the rest of humanity to know what power we all possess. So Jesus was crucified, and his message manipulated to fit what the powers-that-be wanted it to say, keeping the true power away from the people.
I’ve come to believe we have our own power. We are all connected to and part of that One great God power. I discovered these truths on my own. Yes, my discoveries were fueled by more than just speculating the fabric of the Universe for countless afternoons with my boyfriend in my late teens. I read books, watched videos and movies, talked with other people with similar questions. But when I say I discovered these truths on my own, I mean the feeling of resonance. You know, that vibration of energy deep in your soul, that when you learn something or discover something, you can feel its truth within you, lifting you up, empowering you, exciting you and igniting a thirst for more. I personally never experienced that going to that brick-and-mortar church building. But I discovered what it felt like to connect with God when I was out in nature, or having an enlightening conversation with a loved one, or wishing I had something and then suddenly that very thing appears in my life, or when a tough situation somehow just works out, as if by magic. I felt that presence of a great powerful energy. And when I realized I am part of that, and one with it, I felt that deep inner resonance even more.
This is spirituality. That inner knowing, that discovery for yourself, what it means to be alive, uninfluenced by any religious dogmas or doctrines thinking they hold power over you. What gives your life meaning. What builds your personal power. That trust and knowing that has the power to take away all fear in your life, and bring you the confidence that you are supported, you are safe, and you deserve and can attain the greatest of joys.
Religion is taught. Spirituality is felt. Religion is a culture. Spirituality is personal.Wanting to explore your spirituality deeper? I’d love to help, but remember, this is a path you have to discover for yourself. I can’t show it to you. But I can give you the tools to uncover it on your own. DM me on social media @JamiChristine11 or email me at email@example.com if you’d like to learn more!